W25D0 - BABC

I managed to get through only 2ish weeks of depression before I got back into working out.

You can see that about 29Nov was just before the depressive period.  I was starting to go up slowly.  Around the 13th or so I hit full stride until the 4th of January or so when I decided to get back into working out and so last week I went back to eating correctly and drinking a ton of water a day and worked out 3 times on the stationary bike.  Except for the physical weight, I'm almost exactly back where I was at the end of November.

	01/11/16	01/05/16	12/20/15	12/13/15	12/06/15	11/29/15
weight	276	284.4	278	272	270	268
neck	16.25	16.5	16.5	16	16.5	16
chest	40.5	41.5	40.8	40.5	40.5	40.25
navel	45	46	44	44.75	44.5	44.5
waist
hips	49.5	51.75	49.5	49	49	49
thigh	27.5	28.25	27.25	27	27.5	27.5
caliper chest	30	28	30	24	26	30
caliper abs	34	38	36	34	34	34
caliper thigh	32	36	36	32	32	32

In this time, I realized that my depressive episodes are related to specific dates and once I realize that I can make a change.  I'll still be depressed and I crave things like reeses peanut butter cups... a lot of them.  I need to get over the feeling that I am not worthy.  Once I can do that I can break through my wall.  I'm going to push pretty hard this week to get my weight and size back down to that first reading on the right.  I can do it.  Then I'll break through that wall again.