W6D3 - BABC

Well today was f'crazy.  I ate well.  I had a pop tart and 2 dr peppers.  I have immense cravings.  I am a sugar addict.  I don't want sugar to taste bad (if I go for hypnosis for it) - what I want is to just not crave it - oh and I had a quesadilla - which was more just a single burrito flour with cheese in it... so it's loosely qualified as a quesadilla.

I didn't sleep worth a shit last night - I have a sleep app called 'sleep cycle' which is wonderful and measures my sleep - I didn't sleep until almost 2:45 this morning.  I was so tired today and just didn't want to move.  I didn't want to exercise - I barely wanted to stay awake.  I promised Lucas that we'd go ride the southern greenway in springfield over by "my old house" - the last time we rode that greenway was about 6 years ago - he was sooo tiny.  I wanted to just not do it and then do it Friday sometime when they come over for the day.  I sucked it up and Lucas and I spent an hour riding that greenway.  I was happy with it and felt great about it.  I'm glad I did it.  I wish I'd still done the TRX workout for the day and cize... however, I'm not too disappointed - I'm ok that I didn't get them - I would've really liked to; in the future, I will be able to do them all without a problem and I'm ok with that.  The fact that I sucked it up and did what I needed to at the end is good.  Each time I workout means that's one more day closer to craving workouts and not craving sugar.

I did also put together some checklists for the weeks and the calendar.  So I can keep my pages down on my desk clipboard and be able to track my reps, sets, circuits, etc.

I'm tired and my butt hurts from riding so much.

W6D2 - BABC

Yesterday was good-sucked.  The day, overall, was great.  The day, workingout, was shit.

I've decided not to delay the workout today.  I'm heading down to ride the bike while doing my professional development (I can read and watch example videos while I ride).  At noon, I'm punching the TRX in the face.

30 min bike ride while reading about AngularJS - check
TRX Feelgood Full Body Workout - check
Cize - check

Today was an fn good day!  I am having a dr pepper to celebrate - I know, ironic.

I learned one thing from Cize - I can't dance; and to prove it I recorded the first 10 minutes... it was bad; so bad, in fact, that I started laughing during the workout.  Shaun-T makes it look easy; I make it look like it's hard.  The workout was enjoyable though - the time flew by.

I feel accomplished today.  I completed a lot of workout.  I ate very well.  I've already showered.

W6D1 - BABC

I had an extremely crappy week.  Below is a repost I wrote in a support group of friends.

"I got tired of having these old Army shorts and using regular tshirts to workout in. The shorts were a bit too small (read: nuthuggers) when they used to be regular shorts (you know, back when I was 200 pounds lol). And I've ruined a bunch of tshirts bc I've worked out in them.

I bought 8 pairs of bcg mesh shorts (3XL) and 5 bcg moisture wicking shirts (XL) that I love to workout in b/c they're comfortable. So, for the first time since Iraq I have dedicated workout clothes that fit correctly and I spent 78 bucks (that I barely had).

In other news, this week has sucked ass. I have managed to get one workout in and that was Monday morning. Monday afternoon I took a half day and drove Lucas to the other side of Tulsa for a BMX racing camp and drove back. Tuesday, I started a new project and was so exhausted I didn't even attempt a workout then went to BMX racing that night. Yesterday, I didn't get in my bike ride. I had changed into workout clothes and was adjusting my skates when I got a call that my dad broke his leg at the nursing home so I changed and rode down there another half day gone. I've not eaten how I wanted. I've not worked out the way I've wanted. This week has sucked. I'm getting ready to bake my skates (actually using a hair dryer) to make them fit a bit better. Then, I'm going downstairs for my scheduled workout.

This week, I've learned that I need to get all of my meals ready for the day either that day or the day before and make sure they're available so if I need to run off then I can still take them with me - they're pretty easy to do and don't need to be refrigerated so I have no excuses. I also need to make sure that if I can't do my workout as planned that I have a backup plan for a workout. For example, when Lucas was at the BMX camp on Monday I could've strung my TRX up to my car or something.

over the last 5 weeks, I have noticed that even riding the bike 30 minutes a day 5x a week has improved my brain function (not concentration, yet) - so my brain is more active than it was - not remembering more, nor concentration/focusing more, but very active."

	27Jul15	17Aug15	31Aug15
weight	285	282	287
neck	16.25	16.25	16.5
chest	42.75	42	42.25
navel	50.75/49.25	47.5	49.5/47.5
waist
hips	51.5	51.75	52
thigh	29.75	28.75	29.5
caliper chest	38	38	40
caliper abs	44	42	42-44
caliper thigh	40	36	40

My current weight has gone up - and I'm going to tell you it's for 1 reason and 1 reason only... I've not been eating correctly.  This last week I stuck to absolutely none of my times nor plans.  This week, I'm sticking to them all.

I recorded my first videos this morning.  One was me attempting a pull up; the second was a 15 min intro to what I'm doing and why.  I will have to store and catalog this footage so I can make sure to accomplish my goal.

Ok, today went ok - not great, just ok.  I managed to get in a ton of water today.  I ate the way I intended.  I got in my 1-5 minute workout every hour.  I had nothing left for my noon workouts and I didn't get in a bike ride.  I'm disappointed by those last three.  So it's 6pm - I've got 4 hours until I'm going to bed.  I got a ton of work done today so I have nothing left there.  That means that I can budget at least 1 hour for working out tonight - either jumping on a bike or the pull up program or whatever.  Let's see how it goes.

I did nothing.  I was wiped out.

W5D3 - BABC

This week has sucked, so far.

Monday, I did my ride on the phone call.  Then I had to leave about noon and drove my son to a location in Oklahoma (3+ hours away) for a BMX camp... then drove back.  I ate like crap and didn't get in any exercises that I planned on.

Yesterday, I didn't get my ride in and was exhausted.  I didn't eat most of the day and felt hungry all of the time.  I did have something from Burget King for lunch :(

Today, I have to get back on track.  I've got eggs for breakfast and I'll get the apple and almonds.  At least I know what I'm going to eat - normally, I wouldn't know and probably wouldn't care.

Let's get the day started.

I got tired of having these old Army shorts and using regular tshirts to workout in.  The shorts were a bit too small (read: nuthuggers) when they used to be regular shorts (you know, back when I was 200 pounds lol).  And I've ruined a bunch of tshirts bc I've worked out in them.

I bought 8 pairs of bcg mesh shorts (3XL) and 5 bcg moisture wicking shirts (XL) that I love to workout in b/c they're comfortable.  So, for the first time since Iraq I have dedicated workout clothes that fit correctly and I spent 78 bucks (that I barely had).

In other news, this week has sucked ass.  I have managed to get one workout in and that was Monday morning.  Monday afternoon I took a half day and drove Lucas to the other side of Tulsa for a BMX racing camp and drove back.  Tuesday, I started a new project and was so exhausted I didn't even attempt a workout then went to BMX racing that night.  Today, I didn't get in my bike ride.  I had changed into workout clothes and was adjusting my skates when I got a call that my dad broke his leg at the nursing home so I changed and rode down there another half day gone.  I've not eaten how I wanted.  I've not worked out the way I've wanted.  This week has sucked.

This week, I've learned that I need to get all of my meals ready for the day either that day or the day before and make sure they're available so if I need to run off then I can still take them with me - they're pretty easy to do and don't need to be refrigerated so I have no excuses.  I also need to make sure that if I can't do my workout as planned that I have a backup plan for a workout.  For example, when Lucas was at the BMX camp on Monday I could've strung my TRX up to my car or something.

over the last 5 weeks, I have noticed that even riding the bike 30 minutes a day 5x a week has improved my brain function (not concentration, yet) - so my brain is more active than it was - not remembering more, nor concentration/focusing more, but very active.

W5D70

You can see some good changes being made in my waist area.  I spent the whole weekend eating badly.  Tomorrow, I will rejoin eating correctly tomorrow.  I made some great progress on two applications today so I'm very happy.

Last week, I attempted to get in some heavy workout on Monday and screwed that up for the rest of the week.  This week, I'm just going to add the regular workouts without the weighted vest.  I AM going to add the weighted vest to my walks though.  So all day except when working out I'll wear the vest.

Follow the PUP and FGFBWO and Cize every day at lunch; the hourly mini workouts; and the 30 minute bike ride on the phone callsl;and eat when and how I'm supposed to.  That's all I need to do this week.

I have a plan to help my pull up workouts - I'm going to try a Y hold and use one arm to pull more horizontally than vertically and see how that goes.

	27Jul15	17Aug15	23Aug15
weight	285	282	283
neck	16.25	16.25	16.5
chest	42.75	42	43
navel	50.75/49.25	47.5	47.5
waist
hips	51.5	51.75	51.5
thigh	29.75	28.75	29.25
caliper chest	38	38	38
caliper abs	44	42	42
caliper thigh	40	36	38

W4D1 - BABC

I was going to do measurements every week and then pictures every 2 weeks.  I have slacked off a bit in remembering.

I've been logging everything in myfitnesspal.  I've been eating quite well save yesterday morning and saturday night - they were my designated cheat meals.  I had a dr pepper sat night and donut holes on Sunday morning.  They didn't taste good at all.

I've found eating the same things each day to be incredibly nice, again.  I loved juicing b/c it was so easy to do.  I knew what juice I was going to drink and when.  I like that structure when it comes to "dieting" as it is.  With BABD it's the same thing.  I know what my bricks are.  I know when my bricks will be eaten.  I know when I'm working out.  I know everything about my day except for work.  That's comforting to me.  I guess I don't know everything about my day - there could be curve balls - specifically when it comes to food and workouts I know what's going to happen and when and I don't allow the distractions.  Saturday morning I went to Haley's Hope (3rd or 4th year to troop that event) and took apples and almonds with me.  I didn't make eggs and I didn't take tuna.  When I got back from that event I had my next meal and still felt great.

I've been bicycling at least 4 days a week during my morning meeting.  My schedule says 5 days a week.  I always over schedule workouts and then get in about 1/3 of them.  Today at noon I'm hitting the Pull Up Program and Cize.  I'm looking forward to it.

Below are my measurement comparison.  If I had done one in the middle you would've seen a peak of weight up to 290.

	27Jul15	17Aug15
weight	285	282
neck	16.25	16.25
chest	42.75	42
navel	50.75/49.25	47.5
waist
hips	51.5	51.75
thigh	29.75	28.75
caliper chest	38	38
caliper abs	44	42
caliper thigh	40	36

So far, today's workouts haven't quite gone as planned - not bad, just not as planned.  The bike was ok - almost no pain in my butt from 30 min of riding.  The Pull Up Program - I couldn't do more than one set and that set (along with the normal hour workout) took 30 minutes to do.  I also did the Pull Up Program with a 40 pound weight vest and I'm a little sorry I did.  My rep max was 15 squat rows.  I hit the end at 8 Y-Fly-to-Biceps-Curl-to-Low-Row reps and 6 body saws almost took me apart.  I was able to do 3 pull ups at level 0 - so a lot of leg use. (sit on the floor and pull up until my thighs kick in about parallel with the floor and finish the pull up.  I thought I was going to make a regular pull up - I was wrong.  I haven't done Cize, yet.  that'll be in a bit after my shoulders have quit telling me I was stupid.

I finished strong last night and felt great.  I also noticed that my brain is running at speed again.  That's nice.  I'm glad it's not just depressed on the couch.

W3D4 - BABC

Wow has this week sucked for workouts.  I intended to get in the workouts continuing the roll from last week and the week before.  I was distracted by vacation with the kids. I thought about working out every day and did so with the kids; however, I did not do a workout - I did whatever activity we were punching through.

So week 3 day 4 is here.  I've f'n wasted 2.5 weeks.

This morning has sucked butt, so far.  I hopped on the morning call, then hopped on my bike... then I found out my computer acquired a virus sometime last night.  I didn't let it go out to the bar to pick up other peripherals so i'm not sure how it managed to get infected.  The good news was the virus was a minor trojan (note the difference between a trojan virus vs a trojan condom) and was easily squashed by Symantec.  I still had some browser extensions I had to quash.  So my phone call was crap and I'll have to reschedule my morning bike ride for later today.

Noon workout (the Pull Up Program/Feel good and Cize) may also have to come in later tonight as I'm planning to take a motorcycle ride at lunch - we'll see.  I may still do the workout and ride later tonight (depending on if lucas is doing bmx tonight - if he is then i'll have to run his bike to him, if not, then it's a leisurely ride somewhere, anywhere).

No motorcycle ride and only part of the Feel good Upper workout - no Cize, yet.  However, I did do all of the exercises for the FEGUP workout with a 40 pound vest;which I weigh 334 pounds with workout clothes and the vest on.  Which means my standing weight naked is close to 290 - I don't like that at all - however, some of that weight is due to being "full".

We'll see if Lucas is doing BMX tonight - if he is then I don't know when I'll get my workout in.  However, I've eaten perfectly today, so far - that's a huge bonus.

I ate perfectly today.  I didn't even stray into the Dr Pepper zone.

I did not get in the workouts I wanted to.  I managed to get in 20 mins of my planned workout; 0 mins of my bike; and 0 mins of cize.

I feel good about today.  Tomorrow will be better.

Also, I can't fit comfortably into my riding jeans for my motorcycle -- so this needs to get fixed.

W2D2 - BABC

Yesterday was good and bad.  I managed to get some things moving in my digestive system; however, I also added more to the system so I didn't do what I intended to.  At the end of the day, I was right back where I started at.  I really need to flush my system and maybe I'll do that tomorrow or Thursday.  I have too much to do around town to do that today to be trapped in my car to have a need to go to the bathroom.

I did get in my 30 minute bike ride.  I pushed really hard the last minute of my ride; up from 30s yesterday.

W2D1-BABC

I did crappy logging my workouts and eating for last week.  I got things put into myfitnesspal, but not here.

First, an admission of badness - I ate like complete crap this weekend.  I didn't eat one vegetable that didn't come as a tater tot, quesarito, or at one point a french fry.  I am not sure what I was thinking about, but eating better wasn't really one of the thoughts.  Most of the time, it was just "my wife is out of town and we have no food in the house and I don't want to mess with making the kids food"

Second, I worked out this weekend, but not in my home gym.  I cleaned out my garage and spent about 4 hours doing so in the heat Fri night, Sat, and Sunday.  I sweat a lot and was sore from moving crap around.  I wouldn't say that I worked out vigorously for 4 hours - maybe 30 minutes of vigorous workout is what the 4 hours could be compressed in to.

Third, my body needs to be flushed.  After I eat I have intense heart burn and hiccups.  That's usually due to being "full" in the intestinal regions.  Today was a colaise day and lots of water.  I think when I had the protein shakes that caused some stoppage.  I had plenty of water, but I think there was already the start of a blocker.  This is also evidenced by the rapid gain in weight that I've got going on from 176-179 up to 190 in about a week and a half.  Now, I've eaten crappy, but there's no way an 11-14 pound weight gain happens with me in a week and a half... then I noticed my bathroom visits haven't been productive... so if colaise isn't kicking in then I'll have to call for MOM (update I had to call MOM).

In other news, the bike seat isn't hurting as much as it did the first two days.  I'm not sore when I sit in a regular chair after so that's good too.  I've also been paying better attention to my phone calls while on the bike b/c I literally can't do anything else.

I biked 30 minutes on my call this morning.  I need to get in my 30 minutes of the Pull Up Program and setup the camera to record my doing Cize.

I've outlined my eating plan for tomorrow so I need to make sure I stick with it.

W1D1 - BABC

It has been smoking hot the last few weeks.  The AC in the house has been keeping the house cooler.  By cooler I mean not the 90+ outside, but 77+ inside.  It's been rough for a guy with a lot of fat, like me.  I have been watching Survivor with my wife on Amazon Prime - I could not have watched this show each week on regular TV - the commercials, waiting, etc.  I also hate some of the people and look up wikipedia to see when they go.  In any case, I'm pumped up.  I challenge myself to some things in life and all of the ones I can think of involve something cerebral.  I've never challenged myself to anything physical except in BCT and AIT.  My only physical challenge has been to do a pull up, one single, solitary pull up.  I want more.  I want to go out in the heat and not be so hot b/c of fat.  I want to go out and be able to do things with my kids like ride a bike up a hill without stopping or walking my bike.  I want to be able to do the things they do at cali-move, or al kavadlo, or frank medrano.  I can do it.  I want to be able to climb a rock wall.  I weigh too much to be on a rock wall.  I want to be able to look in a mirror and be happy with what I see.  I know a lot of my depression and issues with not feeling worthy play into not working out as well as get aggrivated by not being able to look in a mirror and see what I think should be seen.  My thighs are bigger around than my waist was in 1993 when I graduated from BCT.  I don't want to hear stupid shit like "you should be happy with who you are" and moronic crap like that.  I should be - I am not because how I am now is not who I am.  I don't give a crap what others think of how I look or how my clothes fit.  *I* care and that's the important part.  It's time to make the difference so I'm happy with seeing what is in the mirror.  There are so many things that are difficult to do at this weight and size.  Im not unhappy with me and I'm not unhappy at this size.  I am unhappy that I'm unable to do all of the things I want to bc I'm not in shape.

I did mostly well yesterday.  I did not have my full workout plan done until the evening.  I ate ok for almost the entire day then at the end I had Dr Pepper.  So tomorrow, I start over with eating correctly.

I wrote out a workout plan that figures out how to get in 4 workouts most days:
30 min bike ride
30 min cize
30 min pull up program
45 minutes pull up expansion which is done 5 minutes every hour from 8-5

That's a lot of workout for the day; however, none of it impacts my day.  I ride the bike during my conference call.  I do cize and pull up program over lunch.  And every hour I need to get away from my desk and drink water so I take 5 mins and get in a mini-workout.  According to myfitnesspal the total caloric burn is 2359 - and my total intake for the day is going to be a lot less (1200-1800).  We'll see how this goes.  I'm excited to do it, but I'm also apprehensive about it being too much.  However, I figured it up for 4 and 8 weeks.  So all I need to do is push for 4 weeks and then I'll be used to it so then I can push to the 8 week mark.  I can do anything for 4-8 weeks.  After that, I'd cut the exercise time down.  So we'll see how my body reacts during the next 4-8 weeks.

W1D0 - BABC

This is the start of my final run at becoming healthier.  I'm not going to add much of anything to the previous post.  I will say that I bought Shaun-T's Cize... I can't dance.  However, I've decided to do something that I hadn't thought of before; I'm going to record my workouts, especially those doing Cize.  If I record the workouts then I'll have an exact record of what I did do and when I'm done.  Then I'll be able to take the footage and show what I looked like starting and what I am able to do when I'm done.  Below is the basic plan.  It's not complicated.  The hardest part is going to be getting started.  Once I've started then this plan won't stop... For me, it's like the walk before you start jogging or running.  There's a point where you're already walking and where you need to be to do your jog/run and then you pick up the pace and your feet move faster and then you're jogging/running.  After that, you don't stop because you're already going.

5 min pull-up plan every hour from 8am to 5 pm
Cize w Shaun t daily
Pull-up Program/Feel Good Full Body schedule daily
Ride bike 30-60 min during morning phone call
Eat correctly following Badass Body recommendations
Drink a minimum of 8 8oz glasses of water
Meditation or Tai Chi and some Yoga
write in blog - weigh daily; measurements once a week; pictures every 2 weeks

Today, the first day consists of doing the first videos and recording what I can currently do.  This includes: pull up, plank, dips, cize, photos, and measurements.  I'll do a comparison with previous results, but only to show the backslide not in reference to this start.  In the last 5 months I've gone from 260-265 back up to 285 and my size has gotten back up (which we'll see below in the table of comparisons).  Essentially, I'm starting over - the measurements and pics will show just how starting over I'm going to be.  I find the following chart to be interesting.

	13May12	7Jun12	6Jun13	30Apr14	9Jul14	7Dec14	21Dec14	5Jan15	15Jan15	25Jan15	16Mar15	22Apr15	16May15	11Jun15	9Jul15	27Jul15
weight	270	272	270	284	279.4	286	275.6	270.6	273.6	272			270.8	279	282	285
neck	18	17.5	16.5	16.5	16.5	16.75	16	16	16	16.5	16	16.5	16.5	16.25	16.25	16.25
chest				44	41.5	43	43.5	42	42.5	42.5	42.3	41	41.5	42.25	43.25	42.75
navel	49	48.5	46.75	50	46.75	49.75	48.15	47.75	48	46.5	46	46.5	45.75	46.5	48	50.75/49.25
waist	46.5	48	43.5		45			46.5
hips	54	52.5	52	53	50	52.5	51.75	50.5	51	51	50.5	50.25	50	51.25	52	51.5
thigh									31.5	30.5	28.8	29	28.75	29.25	29.5	29.75
caliper chest											28	30	26	26	34	38
caliper abs											34	36	32	34	42	44
caliper thigh											34	30	30	32	34	40

Jan2010	May2014	July2014	19Jan2015	2Feb15	27Jul15

For a comparison with the last pics - here are the same two pics but with my stomach "sucked in"